alone

tis two day i m havin a bad headache.. i dono wats goin wrong.. suddenly headache since from yesterday till now.. i ate medicine jus now but it seems not helpin at all.. today i went out for lunch instead of havin it in my office.. when i go out, the sun was killing me.. make me more headache.. from outside the sun went inside the food court, my vision was blurred... out and in are different.. luckily i m not the onli one who feels blurred.. if not i will considered i m havin any prob and should seek for doctor..

recently.. i jus feel like things ar different around me... i don get wat i wish for and i feels neglected around the ppl i care.. i dono y.. its jus a feelin.. i don get as much care like before and i jus feels tat i m always alone.. no one for me to talk to.. no one to ask bout me.. will i b forget by someone else? recently, i dono wat i m thinkin about and when i think bout it, sumtimes it do will make me drop tears.. i m wonderin is there anyone who noe wat i wish to and think bout..

recently.. i oso thinkin on whther i wanna continue to work at tis company or choosin bac to jb and find work at sg.. tis problems do make me think a lot.. mayb u dono wat other side ques will i think when i make tis decision.. tis decision do means a lot to me.. once i make tis decision.. there is no turn bac.. i hav to giv the answer to my manager by tis week.. no one for me to turn to when i m thinkin all tis.. nobody can giv me opinion.. tis oso make me feels alone sumtimes especially recently.. recently.. do make me feel alone and sad... mayb i shouldn't think too much on tat.. mayb wat i hav think and done so much is jus a waste.. so, i think i jus quickly make a decision before the opportunity fly away...

*Happy 1 year & 2 month anniversary..
*I Love You.. miss u so much... muacksss...

26th March 2008

yesterday so good tat my dear they all purposely come here find me and hav dinner together.. but actually yee mei got many plans and say tat wanna hav satay..summore is kajang satay.. hehe.. bcos of tis then i onli hav chance to c my dear before he went bac kelantan today.. hehe.. cos i nd to wait until next weekend onli will saw him liao.. cos tis weekend both of us oso goin bac hometown.. for me will b more tired bcos i sat after my work then onli go bac then sun come bac kl again.. like very free like dat noh..haha.. but bo bian.. miss home and summore wan help my sis handle those colleges things..

bac to the satay.. we hav the satay at sate kajang shop which is jus behind my condominium.. the satay was very nice and we order and order again and again.. hehe.. the meat was quite big as compared to others and per stick is jus 60 sen.. cheap and won expensive.. cos normal oso nd 40-50 sen dy.. then my dear and yee mei and fing very bad.. my dear call huang and tell her we havin satay right now and fing and yee mei oso show off wit huang.. but i don hav.. keke.. i so gd noh.. wakakaka... ;0) after havin satay, they come my hse and chit chat then they oso went bac to nilai.. i so happy cos i can c my dear again.. miss him noh.. hehe..

ps1 : yee mei and fing..thank you o for givin me to chance to c him..

ps2 : dear.. thank you to u too.. havin fun while we 4 person havin our satay together..

~wonderful weekend~

SATURDAY ---->>>

mornin go to work then after work jiu come bac home.. haha.. while for at nite, i went to sin min hse for her birthday party specially arranged by her bf for her.. ching fen come and fetch me tat day.. bout 1 month plus din c her dy.. so when c her then got a lot of things to chat.. from where she fetch me till when she fetch me bac, we ar keep talkin and talkin.. hehe... not enuf time for us to chat oso.. kaka... at sin min's bday party, was quite fun de.. the most special i feel about the party is the birthday cake.. hehe.. her bf bought variety type of cakes for her.. the cake hav blueberry, raspberry, marble cheese cake, black forest, chocolate banana and oreo cheese cake.. among there got few ar my favourites.. hehe.. but i take marble cheese cake and share wit ching fen.. then drag here drag there, take photographs and when i reach home was 11.00pm dy.. so plan to slp cos the next mornin nd to wake up early...

SUNDAY---->>>

tis is the day i goin to watch F1 race at sepang.. cant wait to c.. hehe.. the nite b4 tat cant slp and i slp at about 1pm.. then wake up at 6.40am.. then prepare myself and goin out dy to lrt station.. mana tahu come out from apartment, no taxi available so i us walked to the lrt station.. nowadays, walk bcome more faster and won feel far dy cos dy used to it liao.. it jus take bout 10 minutes walk.. summore can save taxi fare.. hehe.. before we go to the circuit, we hav our breakfast first.. allan, may, dear and me.. when we arrive there, we went to the mall there and hav a look of the shirts and caps of those Mercedes, Ferrari and BMW.. there was a lot of ppls especially those ang moh ppl.. some are very beautiful oso.. my dear survey survey and at last bought a Ferrari shirt as he is the Ferrari supporters oso.. keke.. the shirt cost RM 175.. those shirts and caps isn't tat cheap and some quite expensive oso.. after done all the shoppin at the mall there, we went to our gate and enter and find a nice place to watch the race.. early early oso a lot of ppl sittin there and wait for the race.. when we get in, we hav the chance to c porsche racin in the circuit... the sound of the car racin and the car was damn geng and nice..

then we seated there and wait for the racing time to reach.. when all of the drivers come out, the crowd begins to high and shoutin and cheerin.. the atmosphere was very nice.. all cheerin for their teams.. hehe.. Ferrari have the most fans as most of the ppl are wearin Ferrari shirts and caps and also takin the flag of Ferrari.. when the race starts, all ppl ar cheerin for their teams.. yahoooo... we support Ferrari team.. actually is my dear support tat so i oso follow lo.. hehe.. total laps is 56.. but it onli takes about 1 1/2 hours to finish all those laps.. and at last Ferrari, Kimi Raikkonen win the race.. cheers... :) Kimi was very geng and he drive really very nice and zhun.. he is a great driver.. haha..

after the races finish, we oso went bac home.. all along jus can describe one word.. "badly jammed"... all the ppl comin out together and its jam along the road.. gosh.. but luckily, we come out early.. haha.. i decided not to go for work the next day which is monday bcos when we bac home oso 5 sumting dy.. tat day was a tired day.. so i went to c doctor to get an MC.. the clinic is jus nearby my dear hse.. when i get into the clinic, i feel very geli.. cos the doctor like a bit weird de.. he keep on mumble himself and sumtimes will pray o wat before he issue the medicine for us.. damn scared wit tat doc.. if not i wanto take the MC, i won go tat clinic lo.. i told the doctor i havin diarhoea and vomit.. mana tahu he check me and say i got a bit fever.. mayb its due to the sun in the afternoon so i got a bit hot.. the doctor covers all the job as registration, giving medicine, and check the patients.. he giv me a lot of medicines... but i don dare to eat each of them.. cos i scared got problems wit those medicine.. hehe.. but actually wat i wan is the MC.. haha.. the MC cost me RM 40... expensive hor?

while after tat, i and my dear went for our dinner.. tat time, the rain pour heavily.. when the time reach 9.30pm.. we went to kopitiam and watch football.. its MU vs Liverpool... my dear support MU ma.. so i acc him go c the football match.. but the match is really nice.. hehe.. at last MU wins 3-0 towards Liverpool... geng... Glory Glory MU... haha...

MONDAY---->>>

wake up around 12 sumting and after tat went for lunch.. prepare to go bac my home dy but my dear say wan go to mid valley.. i oso ntg to do we jus went there.. we went there for movie.. Ah Long Pte.Ltd... tis movie was very nice and funny.. if rates, i giv 5 stars... haha.. really very very funny.. who haven watch must go and watch tis movie.. hehe.. my last movie in cinema was around august 07... "Rush Hour 3"... so got bout half year din go cinema watch movie.. so yesterday onli update my movie on cinema.. haha.. like it so much as i can lean on my dear shoulder and holdin his hand while watching the movie.. sweet man... keke... after the movie, we oso went bac in separate way...

ps : dear.. thank you for givin me a wonderful weekend... i really feel very happy and lucky to hav u tis bf always acc me..

ps2 : dear.. i will onli get to c u next week.. tis week u ar goin bac kb and i oso mayb goin bac jb.. i will b here always missing u...

ps3 : I LOVE YOU, TIEW ENG SHIANG... muaxxx...

a weekend again...

today is friday again.. so fast the time pass.. one week one week like tat jus over without havin any interesting day.. everyday jus wake up, work, bac home and slp.. gosh.. my life bcome dull liao.. hehe.. except for weekend.. luckily durin weekend i can hav some fun and acc my dear dear.. haha.. feel so happy whenever hav the chance to spend the day wit him.. ;0) tis week more free a bit.. cos yesterday is a public holiday and i no nd to work.. hehe.. can get one extra day off.. but hor holiday one say then nd to come bac work again for 2 days really make me more sienz.. my other colleagues are more 'song' cos they took today's leave and can go bac hometown or holiday for 4 days till sunday.. sien.. i cannot.. i miss my family and home ler.. long time din go bac dy.. haiz.. sobz sobz..

tis sunday will b a very amazing day coz i m goin to Sepang to watch F1 race.. hehe.. tat day sure will b a great day.. i and my dear and two more friends is goin oso.. we buy the gate C2 ticket and it onli cost RM 100.00 .. RM 100.00 for 3 days o.. RM 100.00 is for student price while for normal price for gate C2 is Rm 200.00... different half of the price o.. cheap isn't it?? haha.. thanks to my dear dear cos he is the one paying for it.. he belanja me c.. keke.. but we ar goin on the last day onli la.. cos the first 2 days is those trainin and bla bla things.. onli sunday is the actual race day.. keke.. tis is the 1st time i really go and watch F1.. but actually is 2nd time la coz last year i went to c as well but is curi curi masuk and jus watch a glance de coz tat time is the last laps liao.. the feeling was very great.. as u hear the sound of the car.. wow.. damn nice.. the car Mercedes, Ferrari.. wow.. nice man.. haha.. tis time i sure goin to take pic liao.. keke.. can't wait for tat day to come.. bleks..

*wink*

today i was very tired.. yesterday slp around 12 sumting then wake up at 6.40am... dono y yesterday i full of energy and cannot slp.. mayb sat nite slp too much liao.. haha.. today i very lazy to wake up lo.. when reach every monday, then i will very sien dy.. cos it is the beginning of the week and nd to struggle until the weekend.. hehe.. workin life ain't tat gd as every ppl think.. although can earn money... but workin life very sien and no life.. everyday the routines is the same.. wake up, go to work, come bac, slp... haiz.. today summore "jialat" de.. cos the lrt havin technical problem and delay again.. 15-20 minutes come one lrt.. damn sien wit tat.. then each lrt oso packed wit a lot of peoples.. wanna squeezed in oso damn hard.. wait for the lrt oso bout 30-40 minutes lo.. i keep on squeezed inside to the one of the lrt.. aboh.. i sure will late for work.. cos i reach my office oso 8.58am dy.. *fuuuu~~...

i m wonderin after my internship i wanna continue my studies or start workin... i dono wat decision should i make.. if continue study nd a lot of money.. besides, my sis oso plannin to continue study which take the same course and same coll as me.. she jus graduated from her form 5.. if both of us study, then my parents burden will increase... other than tat, a lot of the ppl workin in tis industry told us tat experience is more important for us to survive in tis industry.. bcos ours is like dealin wit customers, so our skills and experiences is very important.. but besides, i noe tat wit a higher certificate sure will get better salary than a diploma cert.. but.. its really very "fan".. wan study oso not correct, dowan study oso not correct.. dowan think of anythin better.. it will make our life more freely and easier.. don u think so??

yesterday i was very happy and its really fun.. my dear fetch me bac to melati and before tat we went to klcc and walk walk.. but actually we went to the education fair.. jus go look look.. we took a lot of brochure regardin the courses we interested wit and of coz my dear wanto continue his study so nd to do a research.. after tat, we went to coffee bean and hav a drink.. tis time plus 2 guys who always tease me "horse" de.. [qian + han] other than tis 2 still got one more [hee].. hehe...but i don mind they tease me.. jus for fun ma... wakaka.. at there, we met a group of 4 gals which is korean and they jus sit next to our table.. they ar damn *bising*.. talk very loud and one of the girl ar rough enuf.. wear short skirt then go out to buy drinks by steppin on the sofa and jump down.. *gosh* after our drinks, i went bac home and they went for "dota".. haha.. i dono how to play so din ikut them.. then i at home wait for them for dinner and our dinner we hav Mcd.. everyone's favourites.. hehe.. durin our dinner, the guys keep on talkin bout the "dota" and i dono ntg so i jus keep quiet.. hehe.. i keep quite should b ver gd mar.. but i kena tanya balik y i so quiet.. normally, i very bising and talk a lot de mer?? hehe.. but i ntg de although let they all always tease me.. hehe.. jus hav fun and everyone can laugh and happy together then its fine for me.. haha... jus wish to enjoy every moments wit my friends...

port klang trip.. regency 7 seas

yesterday, it was a very busy day.. i woke up at 4.30 am in the morning.. luckily the nite before tat i slp at 9 sumting.. if not i think i cant wake up liao lo.. hehe.. i got to go to terminal star cruise, port klang because there is a cruise goin to reach malaysia.. the cruise name is Regency 7 Seas..one of my colleagues come and fetch me around 5 sumting and when we reach office it is bout 6am dy.. after tat we move our things tat v nd to bring into the bus.. the bus drove us to the port.. and v reach there around 7 sumting.. the cruise will reach at 7am and will disembarked on 5pm.. it is jus a short time for them to stay at malaysia..

the passengers will go for the excursion trip and for tis, we arranged 10 coaches which is separated into different types of tour.. for example, kuala lumpur highlights tour, kuala lumpur explorations, historic malacca tour, city of garden tour and kuala lumpur handicrafts tour... each coaches will b supplied water and a wet towel for each passengers...each of the coaches will have one tour guide.. the tour guide is to explains and tell the passengers the information during the tour.. around 7 sumting to 8 sumting, the passengers begins to board the respective bus for their tour.. most of the passengers are all senior citizen and most of them will walk slow and need the walking stick o wheel chair to help to walk.. but they are all still in good energy and strength to go for the tour.. below is the pic of the passengers boardin the bus...
when all of the passengers board the bus, then the bus start their journey for thier tours.. while, we staff (4 of us) waited for the person in charge to come to us.. we waited there until 9.30am and then he comes.. his name is Phil Butterworth and he is the Travel Concierge Manager. he is a very kind and friendly person.. he tell us a lot regarding the ship and he do willin to bring us on board the ship to hav a look.. the security for the cruise is very tight and we as the visitors, we hav to leave our IC there.. then Phil take us around the ship and tell us wat do they hav on board.. he explains very detailed to us regardin their cruise.. as he is the concierge manager, so he noe watever informations.. hehe...

tis cruise goes around the world and it takes 4 months for the whole trip around the world.. before comin to port klang, their destination is singapore and their next destination is phuket.. tis cruise is 5 years old as it is completely builded at february 2003. inside the cruise, there are all sorts of entertainment and facilities.. for examples, spa, pedicure & manicure, gymnasium, hair saloon, swimming pool, tennis court, club.com (online places), casino, lounge, restaurants and many many more.. the cruise hav 11 decks.. the uppest deck is where the swimming pool located..

after showin us around, Phil is oso busy.. so we left the ship and go for our breakfast.. after tat, we headed bac to kl to do sumting and we had our lunch at klcc.. goin out for tis company trip not bad noh.. cos we eat all claim from company.. haha.. then when around 3pm we went bac to port klang again.. too bad, it started to rain heavily and caused a lot of traffic jam and flooded some of the road... damn heavy the rain.. summore it rained for 1 hour plus.. omg.. tis rain makes nice to slp.. hehe.. we hav driver to fetch us bac to port klang.. so all of us were very tired and we slept on the bus.. mana tahu.. when we wake up, the driver told us tat we sesat jalan dy.. gosh.. the rain summore rainin so heavily and jam over the place.. then we try to seek the correct route to go and turn here turn there and at last reach port klang at 4.30pm.. we are supposed to reached there bout 4pm de.. but due to circumstances so we late.. haha.. but actually is ok..

then after we settled everythin, wait for the coaches to transfers bac all the passengers, and we start our journey bac to kl around 6pm.. the rain has stopped and the big sun come out again.. wat a weird weather.. a while big sun a while rain heavily.. tats y so many ppl sick bcos of tis kind of weather.. we were very tired so we tot tat we are goin home soon.. mana tahu, from port klang we come out, not yet reach 1km there jam very teruk.. all of the cars was crawlin.. move damn slow.. summore we saw a woman drivin car while readin chinese newspaper.. she very geng, man... haha.. the jam took 40 minutes and we jus crawl bout 3km.. sit on the van oso sit till my butt kemek dy.. at last we noe wat cause the jam.. there was an accident in front which involved a car and a lorry which carry gas.. there were onli 2 lane and they use dy one lane.. so at the front there all of the car goin into one lane and it caused the jam.. but the accident was quite serious..

after tat, start rainin again.. really siao siao de lo the weather.. along the road, we saw many accidents and ppl's car broke down.. mayb is bcos of rainin heavily and the flood.. so ppl cant c and masuk air the car.. hehe.. then we were very careful bout which side should we go bcos the time is the most jam wit car as it is friday and all ppl knock off time.. at last, struggle here struggle there, then we reach our office at 8pm.. then one of my colleaugues heard tat there are riot around kl.. scared me.. so i faster go bac home.. tat time was still rainin very heavy.. when i reach tmn melati lrt, there was no taxi and a very long queue to wait for the taxi.. so i jus decided to walk bac home.. if not, i oso dono nd to wait how long for a taxi.. usually is takes 15 minutes to reach but yesterday i took 10 minutes to reach.. bcos it is nite time and it is more dangerous, so i walked faster and reach faster.. haha.. damn tired tho whole day busy like tis.. so after i hav done my bath and everything.. i go to bed.. tat was a nice feelin to lie on the bed.. haha..

feels very toubled now!!

now my mind feels very toubled now.. i dono wat decision should i take.. i dowan to take a decision which will make me regret after tat.. what should i do?? should i pluck my teeth o keep it?? truthfully, i not bear to take my teeth off cos it dy follow me for bout 7-8 years.. there ar feelin wit it.. besides, ppl recognizes me bcos i got tat teeth.. how?? how??

a number of my frens told me tat they like my teeth and my teeth is very nice.. summore, my dear always tell me tat if i pluck my teeth then i m not unique anymore.. wuwu.. sobz sobz.. haiz.. how how how?? should i jus forget about it o take it as an opportunity?? who can help me to think of a gd solution o a gd decision tat i won regret after tat??

* feelin right now : troubled

feel relieved now..

my results jus come out not long... feel relieved now dy.. but not too happy wit it.. but i dy feel contented liao.. i pass all my subjects.. i get 1 A's, and 4 B's... i didnt even think tat i can pass all and my law can get B.. tis sem i couldnt maintain the results like b4.. b4 vivienne de subject, i will try to get A de.. but tis sem merosot dy, get B nia.. hehe.. but julynn de i get A for her.. haha.. i've counted my gpa for tis sem.. i get 3.158... cgpa i dono how to count.. keke.. although last sem is jus 5 subjects but all sub is oso 4 credit hours except for japanese 3 credit hours.. all da subjects oso very hard and difficult.. very stressful a last sem.. but now its all over dy... should feel contented and happy liao.. cos i can graduate dy.. to all those frens of mine who failed, its ok.. we still hav tis sem to cover up.. tis sem u all must work harder and resit the sub.. then v onli can graduate together.. R3 de members.. our graduation day won miss even one of u... so, gambatte and all da best to u.. =)

nervous + scared = insomnia

now is already midnite liao but i still cant slp.. later on my results will come out.. very very nervous and scared bout it.. scared till i cannot slp.. from 10pm i dy lie on the bed liao but till now oso cant slp.. keep on worryin bout the results... how? i really wish to pass all my subjects smoothly.. i dowan to fail any subjects... faster allowed me to slp and don think so much.. i tomoro still nd to work.. if i still cant slp then tomoro when i work i sure very sleepy and tired de.. pls pls pls..

i lie on the bed nervous and scared till i oso begins to sweat.. hot till got sweat come out de.. how come like tis.. now i whole body oso giggle.. siao liao la like dat.. faster reach morning la.. then i no nd so suffer dy... haha.. anyway.. jus hope everyone of my frens can get the results they want and bless me as well.. i jus wanna pass all my subjects smoothly.. tomoro i gonna check durin my workin time... hehe.. gdluck to everyone.. =)

tis few days workin ar quite boring and tired.. now keep on rotatin the schedule.. every mornin reach the office then will read news, checkin mails, surfing friendster and facebook and at last check till ntg for me to check... very sien when workin.. now i don hav much work to do.. everyday jus sittin in front of the pc and wait the time pass.. omg.. sit oso sit till my butt bcome flat liao.. haha.. but recently i got learn on how to do hotel bookin and fax to the hotel for the room reservation.. quite fun when doin tat.. i dono i gonna learn wat summore in the inbound side.. i dy learn how to update rates, do transfer booking, file-ling, hotel booking and bla bla bla..

next friday, i will hav to reach the office at 6am.. bcos i m goin to port klang after tat.. got one cruise "Cunard's Queen Victoria" will reach there.. i hav the chance to go there together wit my colleagues and experience on how they assigned those tourist who reach there.. the cruise is the one which travel around the world and it takes a long long time de.. one year it onli disembarked durin the early of the year and end of the year.. so, tis is a good opportunity for me to c the cruise and experience how big and grand it is.. haha...

tis thursday, my exam results will b comin out.. feeling so scared now.. cos i scared i failed my hospitality law.. i dowan to fail tat.. cos it is very hard to study tat and i don wish to drag my graduate day... i wanto graduate faster.. i jus hope i can get a pass (cukup cukup makan) for tat then it is enuf dy.. hope fope god can bless me for tat.. besides, oso wish to get gd results for other subject and the most important is pass all da subjects lo.. tis is my last sem.. i don wish to hav any burden.. anyway.. hope god will bless everyone and hope i can pass all my subjects smoothly... then i will b very grateful... thank you very much...

tis weekend was not a lonely weekend like last week o cos i hav my dear to accompany me.. although it is jus 1 day and a half.. hehe.. thank you ya dear.. haha.. although we din do anythin much or go out, but havin yr accompany i dy very happy and feel contented.. true love don cost a things, agree?? hehe.. tis is wat i think la.. cos sumtime i c some couple tat one of them will always nd to think of how to giv their the other part surprises o havin big brain on wat to buy for their the other part to make them happy... is love counted like tis? i don think so.. except on those special occasion, then i can understand.. hehe.. tis is my perception la.. no other meaning de..

tomoro is another day of beginning of the week.. tomoro is the 3rd week of my internship. i left 8 week to go.. the time pass very fast.. every week jus pass like dat.. wit workin life, the time pass even faster. wit workin life, other activities o plan jus can be carried out durin the weekend. haiz... u noe y?? cos everyday will wake up early in the mornin and come bac to home is already tired and it is already in the evenin.. wat can do after tat? then oso will think of sleepin early.. tats the life of workin.. study life how oso is better than workin life although workin life is for us to earn money.. besides, earning money is not an easy job as well.. sobz sobz..

recently, when i m in the office, when i got ntg to do, i will read those materials and i found that Bali is a good place to go and its really fun.. so wish to go there.. very long din go for holiday dy.. haha.. but, before i go, i must learn swimming first!!! hehe.. dono how to swimming, go there is a waste although can enjoy those beach and scenery.. but if u noe how to swim then u can go for the water activities.. tats more fun, rite?? hope 1 day i can go there.. but of coz is wit my beloved one lo.. tat will confirm very romantic.. if plus a group of friends as well then it will more fun lo.. hehe.. cos i don mind wit a bunch of friends goin together de.. as the important is we hav a great time there and enjoy very much and of cos leave a memorable memories in our mind... rite?? if got chance la.. then i will go there de... think think first.. hope i can achieve tat wit my own ability.. keke.. :)