its just a feelin... hope u won mind i letting it out...

the time now is 11.30pm... i usually sleep at 10 or 10 something.. but don't know y today i cant sleep.. my mind is spinning around and around.. i have some feeling right in my heart.. and i decided to let it out.. after tis i will b fine and back to normal without think of tis...

sometimes when i'm alone, bored or need someone to talk to tat time, you're always busy.. when i really need u the most, you're away... i'm saying tis is not because i'm blaming u right now or what.. its just a feeling.. hope u won't misunderstand.. sometimes i wonder y everytime when u need me or wan me to take care of u (at least i've done before), i will be there for u, but u aren't there for me when i need u as well... sometimes i oso wonder y everytime when during the sem break, i can go bac my hometown late a bit and come bac earlier than my coll reopen, in just intend to spend more time wit u and just to accompany u.. but u din do tat for me oso... u will always go bac right after u finish yr exam and come bac on time on the day u start class... recently, i oso keep on thinking about wat will happen to us after i finish my internship.. wat will happen to us after i graduate and i work.. wat will happen to us when u go study abroad... a lot of tis question mark always popping right in front of my mind.. mayb u will ask me not to think so much.. but tis ques sooner or later, it hav to solve as well..

i say all tis is jus a temporary feeling right in my heart.. it wil gone after tis.. i jus hope that u won mind of wat i stated here... i wanna let u know that i'm not blaming u or unhappy wit u.. i think is because i think to much and leads to me like tis... say truthfully sincere from my heart, i really happy that i hav u tis bf.. i'm really satisfied wit my life right now.. i don't want to lose u as the part of me.. i really love u very much and care bout u very much.. i admit tat sometime maybe harsh or play style wit u.. here i say sorry to u.. I'm Sorry... i jus wan u to know tat i really wanto b wit u for a long long time... i dowan anythin to happen to us or anything tat separate us.. i really treasure our relationship a lot..

later on... will b our 1 year and 1 month v been together.. for me, tis is a long and happy times tat i ever spend wit... i really really happy wit tat... okie.. i m fine now... i can get bac to sleep already... haha... tomoro is saturday.. i just hav to work half day o... but don have any plan yet.. or mayb will go home and rest... hehe... "dear, TIEW ENG SHIANG.... I LOVE YOU and HAPPY 1 YEAR & 1 MONTH anniversary... Muacksss.... "